trust/white blood cells

and i have learned that trust is no easy thing.
it is not pretty,
fun,
or clean.
to trust fully means to give up mind,
heart,
soul,
and spirit.
it means to give up white cell blood count,
chemical imbalances,
trauma,
and broken memories.
it means giving up the right to pity and sadness,
and the right to happiness and fuzzy feelings.
trust is an endless leaning,
or more accurate perhaps,
an endless fall.
it means realizing you have nothing without Him.